Caroline some more.
What was it? My charm, my looks, my "bad boy" appeal (according to her perspective perhaps), my awesome music ability, my meat!? What set me apart from any other potential interest trying to catch her eye? The fact that I was not the "sale" art perhaps was the draw? We never really said to each other why we are fond of each other from back then. Had to say, totally thanks to the entropy through time.
Honestly, I'm not sure I can totally and completely, for all time keep a lid on the dream that IS her without wanting to go back to the dream that could have been US! Basically, I kinda, at some depth, want all or nothing... But if I can maintain a real, steady and sustainable dependable frequency of contact, I just might be OK with the gap!
She's so beautiful!
Are you someone who does not like to lose? The thought of someone telling you "No, you can't have" causes anxiety!
"Why did you love me?" She never told me or I her, but later she came clean.
She said she could never part from me. But why? I need at least something. Explained February 22 via IMessage, that the reasons were given in a "note" years ago. OOPS! I was an idiot!
I know why she felt the urge to go to her Return Missionary, but why did she stay with me, albeit infrequently and distantly. She says that, "I'm a part of her" and that she loved me even back then.
Do I only love the idea of her? Same for her: then and now.
What was it? My charm, my looks, my "bad boy" appeal (according to her perspective perhaps), my awesome music ability, my meat!? What set me apart from any other potential interest trying to catch her eye? The fact that I was not the "sale" art perhaps was the draw? We never really said to each other why we are fond of each other from back then. Had to say, totally thanks to the entropy through time.
Honestly, I'm not sure I can totally and completely, for all time keep a lid on the dream that IS her without wanting to go back to the dream that could have been US! Basically, I kinda, at some depth, want all or nothing... But if I can maintain a real, steady and sustainable dependable frequency of contact, I just might be OK with the gap!
She's so beautiful!
Are you someone who does not like to lose? The thought of someone telling you "No, you can't have" causes anxiety!
"Why did you love me?" She never told me or I her, but later she came clean.
She said she could never part from me. But why? I need at least something. Explained February 22 via IMessage, that the reasons were given in a "note" years ago. OOPS! I was an idiot!
I know why she felt the urge to go to her Return Missionary, but why did she stay with me, albeit infrequently and distantly. She says that, "I'm a part of her" and that she loved me even back then.
Do I only love the idea of her? Same for her: then and now.