February 18, 2014 // Shawn's Journal

I just need a good cry, for my utter fuck-up with Caroline! I'm in such darkness after such a beautiful light week with her. Oh, how can I cope!? I bleed, I tremble in the coming time without her.

I don't just want to be the bee, I want to BE her GARDEN! God Damnit!

She has strong volition. I can tell she is used to getting her way with most of what she faces. No wonder she wants me still. I'm the one who said, "No, you can't HAVE me..." Now look. Now she wants me and I want her too!

I need to talk to Sunni!